That’s a hard question and I don’t have an easy answer to it. It is something that I struggle with which is why I think the Lord lead me to make “trust” as my focus word for 2013. I clearly need the practice!
The scripture that stands out most to me in regards to trust is Proverbs 3: 5-6:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, on your own intelligence rely not; in all your ways be mindful of Him, and He will make straight your paths.”
(Saint Joseph Personal Size Edition of The New American Bible)
This quote convicts me and encourages me in my faith and trust in the Lord. I don’t know about you but I prefer to rely on myself a lot of time rather than on God, thank you very much! I want things to happen on my timetable and my way. I don’t want “wait” for an answer, either, I want what I want when I want it! This makes me sound like a two-year-old or something doesn’t it?
Right now we have a lot going on. We are looking for a place to live (after staying with my in-laws for a while), we need to get an extra car for me so I can get to school. I have to figure out who will watch Andrew every Tuesday for my early morning class that is starting in two weeks. Finances are tight. I’m homeschooling and have projects piling up. I’m feeling a little stressed to say the least.
For me, this is where trust comes in. I need to have the faith to trust that God will bring us to the right apartment that we can afford, that he will provide a car or transportation for me to get to my class and he will arrange for a sitter for Andrew. Yes, I have to do my part, and calmly look for that new apartment and car, but I have to quit stressing over it and trust in the Lord. That’s not easy.
Trust means that we rely on God and believe that He is invested in our lives. It means giving up our illusion of control and allow God to work in our lives – even in the details of our lives like finding a place to live. To me, trust means letting go of anxiety and knowing God is God.
Do you remember the 1980s sitcom, Charles in Charge starring Scott Baio? (You can see free episodes on Hulu.) Sometimes when my IRL friend Anne and I talk about stuff and remind each other to trust God we say, “God’s in charge, NOT Charles!”
That’s what I am going to try to remember for 2013 – to let God be in charge and not try not to interfere with God’s plan for me.
What about you? What does trusting God mean to you? I’d love to get a conversation about this going, so leave your thoughts and reflections on trust and what it means for you in the combox.